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Wednesday, August 19, 2009


Hope is Sally's angel baby of the "Tuesday's Hope" blog. So many lost baby moms whose blogs I follow have wished Hope a happy birthday that I cannot help but blog on Hope. It is really hard to live through the first anniversary of the day you gave birth to your angel baby. This day should have been different. This is the day you should be celebrating your child's first birthday like other parents do - with cake and laughter, family and friends and most importantly with your baby in your arms. It should not be a day when you cry your eyes out or go through pictures of your dead child. This is not how it was meant to be.
Hope grew wings and flew away but hope lives on. You can see hope in all the rainbow babies and in the eyes of moms who are still trying for a rainbow baby. Hope is what keeps us going. Happy birthday Hope. I am sure you and Akul are somewhere peaceful and know that your moms support one another.


  1. Every time I write the word hope I think of Hope and Sally.

    Thank you for finding me. Akul is beautiful and I'm so sorry he isn't in your arms where he belongs.


  2. your hope is beautiful. Im so sorry for your loss. Losing a child is something you never think will happen to you. I still dont even believe that it is real, I keep hoping to be awaken from this nightmare.
    you are in my prayers

  3. That's so sweet of you. Thinking of Hope today, too.

  4. I read your posts in the blog and it makes me cry and my heart heavy. I haven't even experienced motherhood yet but it seems scary and special at the sametime. It makes me appreciate my mom more and what she must have gone through her life for me...


  5. Sweetie, I read your comment to my recent post about being told about pregnancies and babies and wanted to respond...there's a BIG difference between being told about a new pregnancy or baby, and meeting a baby, particularly a baby that you expected to be born just at the same time as Akul. Each of us have our 'shadow baby' or babies...babes born to other mamas with whom we shared our pregnancies - I know I do. I had a cousin and a friend who were both due the same week as me and I haven't met either (although I eventually have seen them, not necessarily by choice). In fact I've only met two babies born since Ezra...my niece, and much more recently my neighbor's baby. Please be gentle with yourself...this is a process, and is so very hard. If you want to email me, I'm at skatzesq @ gmail dot com

  6. I got your comment on my For Your Tears. I am so sorry that I didn't get your email. I just went through and can't find it. Maybe I gave it to you wrong. Let's try it again because I have been waiting to hear from you and I want to send you the handkerchief.

  7. Thank you so very, very much. Sorry it took me so long to comment, I have been away without internet access.
    Your kind words mean the world to me.