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Saturday, February 13, 2010

Akul would have been ONE today

Walking and talking and calling me mom...snatching things and bawling and giving sloppy kisses and lovely lovely hugss...My baby would have been ONE today. Today, on his first birthday, I will share with you all, my fellow baby lost moms, a poem I wrote when I first lost my Akul. Every word is penned with the ink of a thousand tears.

AN ANGEL CAME TO LIVE WITH ME

An angel came to live with me
He made my womb his home
My fluids were his silken sheet
my flesh his mattress foam

He brought me gifts
from other lands
gifts precious and rare
milk to my breasts
glow to my skin
a heart with baby cares

An angel came to live with me
He was my gift divine
He had short limbs and tiny wings
he was my heady wine

He made me want
to hold him tight
made me want a son
he made me crave
and yearn to be
his very ordinary mom

He flew away to fairy lands
in the short blink of an eye
while I welcomed him into this world
he quietly waved goodbye.

Akul, my darling, I so wish you had not waved us goodbye. Your dad and mom miss you like they have missed no other and their life is so incomplete without you. Every time I blog I call to you and say "Aajaa Akul." XO XO XO XO XO

28 comments:

  1. Big ((hugs)) Nimoli. I so wish that Akul was with you getting up to all sorts of things that one year olds do. I so wish it for you.

    Thinking of you and your beautiful Akul today.

    Much love
    xxx
    Mirne

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  2. Happy first birthday Akul.
    The poem you wrote for him is so beautiful and you can hear your love in the words - Thank you for sharing.

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  3. That's beautiful Nimoli.

    Holding you and Akul with love today.

    xxx

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  4. Nimoli, I will be thinking of all of you. Holding you in my heart.

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  5. Oh, Nimoli, those words are so heartbreakingly beautiful. I am holding you all close and wishing Akul a happy first birthday.
    All my love to you...

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  6. That is such a beautiful poem!!! I am thinking of you and Akul.

    Happy first birthday, Akul!!

    xo

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  7. An absolutely beautiful poem for a beautiful boy.

    Thinking of you, Sunil and your precious Akul on his special day. x

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  8. Beautiful Poem Nimoli

    Happy birthday Akul- you are loved

    Jane

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  9. *hugs* that poem is beautiful!! WOW!

    Happy 1st Birthday Akul!!

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  10. Happy Birthday Beautiful Boy. Remembering you today and always. xoxo

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  11. Happy 1st Birthday, baby boy. What a hard day, its almost bittersweet. An amazing day as your baby boy was born, but sad because you had to say goodbye 3 days later. Thinking of you today. *hugs*

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  12. Your poem is so touching. I hope you make it through today alright. *BIG HUGS*

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  13. Happy Birthday to your beautiful Akul. ((HUGS))

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  14. I wish Akul had never waved good-bye either Nimoli. Thinking of your precious son on his first birthday and wishing he were there with you to cover in kisses. Sending you both my love...

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  15. What a beautiful poem for a beautiful boy. Happy, happy birthday sweet Akul. xx

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  16. Such a beautiful poem, Nimoli. You are so talented with words. I wish Akul were here today and that instead of meeting you at a support group, I met you at the local mom's group. Mourning and missing him with you and Sunil today. xoxo

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  17. remembering sweet akul with you today and always. 1 year is so very hard

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  18. Beautiful writing for Akul.. mourning him today with you on his first bithday.

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  19. I'm sorry Akul is not with you, as he was last year.. thinking of you.

    I have something for you but I can't find your email address! Can you send it to me? birni@cybergal.com

    x

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  20. What a beautiful poem, Nimoli. You are a gifted writer. We wish things were different and today was a party day.

    Happy Birthday, Akul.

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  21. Stop by my blog, there is a suprise there for you in honor of Akul! Happy Valentines!

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  22. Happy Birthday sweet boy. What a lovely poem and tribute to him, I am positive that he feels your love for him, as I can feel it here through your words.

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  23. Happy birthday Akul

    Your poem is very beautiful. Thinking of you as you remember Akul.

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  24. Happy Birthday Akul. You are so loved and so missed. Thinking of you. Thank you for sharing these beautiful words.

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  25. I don't know you, but I came to your journal today, on the anniversary of your Akul's leaving.

    I want to say I hope you find comfort, and I am so glad for you, so glad you got to meet him.

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  26. Happy Birthday Akul. Your poem is beautiful.

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  27. the poem is beautiful. Happy 1st Birthday Akul.

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  28. I'm sorry I wasn't here on his day but I've been absent for over a week. So I'm sending late birthday wishes to your Akul. ♥

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