Walking and talking and calling me mom...snatching things and bawling and giving sloppy kisses and lovely lovely hugss...My baby would have been ONE today. Today, on his first birthday, I will share with you all, my fellow baby lost moms, a poem I wrote when I first lost my Akul. Every word is penned with the ink of a thousand tears.
AN ANGEL CAME TO LIVE WITH ME
An angel came to live with me
He made my womb his home
My fluids were his silken sheet
my flesh his mattress foam
He brought me gifts
from other lands
gifts precious and rare
milk to my breasts
glow to my skin
a heart with baby cares
An angel came to live with me
He was my gift divine
He had short limbs and tiny wings
he was my heady wine
He made me want
to hold him tight
made me want a son
he made me crave
and yearn to be
his very ordinary mom
He flew away to fairy lands
in the short blink of an eye
while I welcomed him into this world
he quietly waved goodbye.
Akul, my darling, I so wish you had not waved us goodbye. Your dad and mom miss you like they have missed no other and their life is so incomplete without you. Every time I blog I call to you and say "Aajaa Akul." XO XO XO XO XO
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Big ((hugs)) Nimoli. I so wish that Akul was with you getting up to all sorts of things that one year olds do. I so wish it for you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your beautiful Akul today.
Much love
xxx
Mirne
Happy first birthday Akul.
ReplyDeleteThe poem you wrote for him is so beautiful and you can hear your love in the words - Thank you for sharing.
That's beautiful Nimoli.
ReplyDeleteHolding you and Akul with love today.
xxx
Nimoli, I will be thinking of all of you. Holding you in my heart.
ReplyDeleteOh, Nimoli, those words are so heartbreakingly beautiful. I am holding you all close and wishing Akul a happy first birthday.
ReplyDeleteAll my love to you...
That is such a beautiful poem!!! I am thinking of you and Akul.
ReplyDeleteHappy first birthday, Akul!!
xo
An absolutely beautiful poem for a beautiful boy.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Sunil and your precious Akul on his special day. x
Beautiful Poem Nimoli
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Akul- you are loved
Jane
*hugs* that poem is beautiful!! WOW!
ReplyDeleteHappy 1st Birthday Akul!!
Happy Birthday Beautiful Boy. Remembering you today and always. xoxo
ReplyDeleteHappy 1st Birthday, baby boy. What a hard day, its almost bittersweet. An amazing day as your baby boy was born, but sad because you had to say goodbye 3 days later. Thinking of you today. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteYour poem is so touching. I hope you make it through today alright. *BIG HUGS*
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your beautiful Akul. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI wish Akul had never waved good-bye either Nimoli. Thinking of your precious son on his first birthday and wishing he were there with you to cover in kisses. Sending you both my love...
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful poem for a beautiful boy. Happy, happy birthday sweet Akul. xx
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful poem, Nimoli. You are so talented with words. I wish Akul were here today and that instead of meeting you at a support group, I met you at the local mom's group. Mourning and missing him with you and Sunil today. xoxo
ReplyDeleteremembering sweet akul with you today and always. 1 year is so very hard
ReplyDeleteBeautiful writing for Akul.. mourning him today with you on his first bithday.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Akul is not with you, as he was last year.. thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI have something for you but I can't find your email address! Can you send it to me? birni@cybergal.com
x
What a beautiful poem, Nimoli. You are a gifted writer. We wish things were different and today was a party day.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, Akul.
Stop by my blog, there is a suprise there for you in honor of Akul! Happy Valentines!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday sweet boy. What a lovely poem and tribute to him, I am positive that he feels your love for him, as I can feel it here through your words.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Akul
ReplyDeleteYour poem is very beautiful. Thinking of you as you remember Akul.
Happy Birthday Akul. You are so loved and so missed. Thinking of you. Thank you for sharing these beautiful words.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but I came to your journal today, on the anniversary of your Akul's leaving.
ReplyDeleteI want to say I hope you find comfort, and I am so glad for you, so glad you got to meet him.
Happy Birthday Akul. Your poem is beautiful.
ReplyDeletethe poem is beautiful. Happy 1st Birthday Akul.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I wasn't here on his day but I've been absent for over a week. So I'm sending late birthday wishes to your Akul. ♥
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