Last year this time I was seven months pregnant and my colleagues threw a baby shower for Tracy and me. Tracy, my wonderful colleague and friend, was 8 months pregnant and we were both so excited about our babies. Since my colleagues are English teachers, one of the games we played was to write poems, stories or songs for the two babies using words from a list. I saved everything that was written for Akul because I wanted him to read what was written for him some day. I wanted him to experience the love I was experiencing in that gathering that evening. Tracy wrote this beautiful poem for Akul and what better place to put it other than in Akul's "space" and what better time to do it than christmas.
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PRESENT
IS NOT BENEATH YOUR CHRISTMAS TREE
THE PRECIOUS WONDERFUL GIFT
IS LOCKED WHERE NONE CAN SEE
IN THE DARK
THE KICKS SHOW THE SPARK
OF LIFE EMBRACED ENTHUSIASTICALLY
THE LAST MINUTE ADS IN TV VIEW
PROCRASTINATORS ADMIRE AND OOH
BUT NONE COMPARE TO THE LIFE WITHIN
WHICH FORMS AND GROWS - IT IS IN FACT HIM
AND TINY TOES
DREAMY EYES SING
OF WHAT HIS LIFE WILL BRING
I hope this christmas brings you all peace and joy. Hugging all our beautiful angel babies and their wonderful loving moms.
Friday, December 4, 2009
I got a packet in the mail - it contained something I had been waiting for. A month or so ago, Barbara from Burble (http://barbaraboucher.blogspot.com/ ) had this giveaway and I was lucky enough to win a pendant. I opened the packet excitedly ..and there in a small blue box was this very clean and beautifully made pendant with AKUL's name perfectly inscribed on it. On the other side was Akul's date of birth. I kept it on a table at night but when I woke up in the morning, I remembered. So at 7 am I went looking for my silver chain, went to Sunil and asked him to clasp it around my neck. I ran my fingers over Akul's name and cried. I wish I could feel Akul close to me - his fingers against my skin where this pendant rests now. Barbara thank you so very much for giving me this beautiful gift. I treasure it. It has brought me a deep joy that words cannot express. I run my fingers over Akul's name and date of birth so many times each day. I cannot imagine going through my day without this any more. This tiny pendant has become extremely important to me and it helps me scream to the world - I am a mom. I have a son. His name is Akul.
Today Akul would have been 10 months old. Barbara, I bet you he would not have let me wear any chain. He would have probably pulled at it every time I held him in my arms. But he is not in my arms and all I have is this beautiful pendant you made me. This pendant binds all four us in a strange way - beautiful angel baby George and you and angel baby Akul and me. Thank you Barbara for such a beautiful gift. This is my most treasured piece of jewellery.